Alone
I've considered suicide almost 30 times now and actually attempted it at least 5 times. I've had a shitty life. My mom and dad gave me a good life, but I was never any better than my sister. All throughout my almost 21 years of living on this Earth, I would hear: Jenny did this, Jenny did that, Why can't you be more like your sister? All this time, I feel like I've been treated second...and it's true. I came second. There's nothing I've done to be proud of. Since I've started dating Mikey, they've moved away from me like I was The Black Plague. I've never had them be proud of me before, why start now? I just feel like I can never do anything right by them, no matter what I do. There are certain moments of clarity but there's barely anything there anymore. But it's not like I can just drop them completely. And over here isn't any different. It's all about Mikey over here: what medicines he's taking, how chemo is going, how he...